October | 2000FilmTeen

November 17, 2014

“I can’t describe her exactly, except to say that she was beautiful. She was - tremendously alive. She was eating gumdrops.” -F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned.

Rachel McCord | Yashica D | 120mm Kodak Portra 400

From series: 2000filmteen - a film image each day of 2014

You know that feeling right before a new season is about to click into place? The wind shifts, the air is thick with anticipation, and you can feel clarity creeping though the trees with the sunlight. Then with a new breath and a quick blink, everything is different, clearer even. The anticipation of newness is met with the swift and abrupt change only ascertainable to your eye, but it’s earth shaking. Something has shifted - within you and it’s tangible; something is beginning again.

Maybe I am just all too aware of the constant shifting of life’s seasons around me, regardless - I am a sucker for change, a junkie even. But October came and went in a gentle haze, nothing changing besides the leaves. All the while leaving me feeling the need to be more… alive amidst my living. I should be eating more gumdrops.